Saturdays

I have BIG problems with Saturdays. I am a let's-get-er-dun kind of person, and my other 5/6's are a let's not kind of persons. So, on some Saturdays I am up like a drill sergeant yelling orders and commanding 50 situps for the last person ready. Other mornings I drink my coffee and yell orders at myself to sit and relax, all the while working up bad stuff inside as I look around at the kitchen walls, the ceiling, the floors, the book shelves. And SOME mornings my family dresses me, puts the keys and my purse in my hand, and sends me off so they can have peace.

THIS MORNING, we ALL got up around the same time, had a leisurely breakfast, some visiting, and then ALL headed out the door, cause... my car had died on the road coming home last night. And you know what? I kindof liked having a dead car. It gave purpose and meaning to my morning and the other 4/6 (we had two gone and had gained one child) felt like they had purpose and meaning, and WE WERE ALL ON THE SAME PAGE FOR THE FIRST SATURDAY IN A LONG LONG WHILE! Sad isn't it.
It takes death to bring us all together.

On another note, I talked to my eldest who is on her road trip with her grandparents and cousin, and she promised me a blog today sometime. Only it won't include Cracker Barrel. I am a little disconcerted. My dad must be really sick. If you ever go on a trip with my dad, he will almost never stop to eat, UNLESS it is a Cracker Barrel. I have begun to think he owns stock in them. So I am interested in why he chose another joint. (He's been sick, so I am wondering if the girls ganged up on him and he was too sick to defend himself.)

UPDATE:  I talked to my dad and the girls DID gang up on him.  He was so sick he couldn't fight back,  but he said he would NOT be stopping where the girls suggest anymore.  It's Cracker Barrel all the way home.  I feel like  better now. 

thanks for reading,

Reb

Happy Birthday Haley!!!

Today, 15 years ago, I became a mommy for the first, but not last, time. I was supposed to be hosting my family for Thanksgiving along with my mother-in-law. But the Dr. said either go lie down or go to the hospital. I thought he was kidding and said I would lie down after Thanksgiving. He promptly sent me over to the hospital where he postponed duck hunting to deliver my girl. We didn't know she was a girl before birth, but when she was born, there was no doubt. Black hair, fully grown in eye lashes and eyebrows, (I thought my other kiddos were deformed when they were born with no hair anywhere.  Scared me a little.)   little fat rolls already, big beautiful dark eyes. Those eye lashes. She still has them, and the dark hair, but somewhere along the way she lost the sweet rolls. (I think she is pretty happy about that!!) She was creative from the first, and still continues to intimidate me and make me proud all in the same breath with her sewing, crafting, designing, inspiring. She is not afraid of ANYTHING (like Lord of the Rings, that super scary should-be-called-a-horror movie) or poisonous snakes, or going places alone for the first time. So unlike me, but wonderful.

Happy Birthday, Haley, I love you and miss you, and can't wait to take you to the DMV and get your permit.

thanks for reading,

Reb

Sunday

Well yesterday all we did was travel, we left my aunts around 10:00 and after about two hours we stopped at an Arbys for lunch. Then we traveled until we got to Tampa where we met another aunt and cousin for dinnner.

Grace, Grace, God's Grace

Finally, I have found the part that was SUPPOSED to comfort me. But it made me feel a little GUILTY for not walking in it. I am trying to get beyond the guilt but I think I need more that 3 CHAPTERS to do it!!! I know the law let me know how bad a sinner I really am/was. I know I looked upon Jesus and by the faith He GAVE me I believed He took my sins on the cross and paid MY penalty for my sin, and now my debt is paid in full and I walk in HIS righteousness. It's the how that always kinks me up. I think daily (possibly moment by momently) I need to "agree with my conscience that I am guilty, but then remind it that guilt has already been borne by Christ." (Mr. Bridges)

That would do two things, help me walk more by faith and not by law, and also be VERY THANKFUL to Christ as I am reminded daily of how much He loves me and what He did for me. It might even change the way I do things around here. Like help remove some selfishness, and look at circumstances in light of His great love for me, and help me look at things more eternally and maybe be more gracefilled with my fmaily. But don't look to soon, remember, I am JUST now working on this. It takes some people YEARS to learn their job well. Mine will be a LIFETIME. See me in heaven about how I am doing.

I had a post worked up about Saturdays. But I was in a cooking mood and couln't get my head around typing. But I feel that now I can look BACK on yesterday (now 2 days ago)and write with a sound mind. You'll see. (he he he)

thanks for reading,

Reb

ps. Tried to publish this yesterday but couldn't. Today will may be a busy blog day. Haley is at Bush Gardens probably riding every roller coaster she can. The rest of us are busy at home. But as you know that could turn out pretty exciting.