Monday, November 15, 2010

Random Thoughts

Why are random thoughts so interesting?   Could it be that it shows the real side of a person?  Is it that we hope to connect with something or someone and if someone sends out a few random thoughts,  SURELY one may strike a note?  In light of wanting others to feel a connection,  I throw out some random,  and I mean most -likely-so-trivial-you-will-move-on-before-you-finish-the-post thoughts.

1.  For three weeks now I have had one sick child, one each week, with the same sort of symptoms.

2.  Holidays scare, intimidate petrify me.  and birthdays.  and anniversaries.   and Saturday.   I COULD almost skip them. 

3.  I refuse to turn on the heat.  We are up to 3 blankets apiece.

4.  One of my children has taken over the other  three children's daily word quota.

5.  Anyone get ready for bed, look at the clock and realize it's only 6:30? 

6.  I am thinking of doing a paper route.  Anyone want to talk me out of it?

7.  I really like those blogs that list things they are thankful for.  This blog isn't one of them.

8.  I just went to a booksale.  (I think this counts as a thankful,  so you ARE reading a thankful blog!!)

9.  The news is on.  I don't usually watch the news but my daughter wants to see what happened to the catnapper.

10.  We found a mouse skeleton by our driveway yesterday morning.  I screamed. 

thanks for reading,


My Heart Was Black with Sin

I read a little more in The Disciplines of Grace  yesterday and came away realizing just how bad a sinner I really am.  Didn't I begin this journey because I felt guilt over not doing things and doing things and needed to understand how to live in God's grace, not feel defeated and worth less ALL THE TIME?  SO,  I pick a book on grace and it just leads me down a very dark and depressing road.  And this just in ch 2!!!!!!   

So I read some good things and here are the high lights low lights.

1)  My sin is rebellion against God's Authority  (Luke 16:21) (I have always had authority issues, so this was a "DUH" moment.)

2)  When I sin, I despise God.  (2 Sam 2:9-10) (This one sounded so very very very bad,  and I cringed at even typing ...that word)

3)  When I sin I defy God's authority over me (1 Kings 13:21)  (Kindof sounds like putting fingers up to the nose and going,  'Nah, Nah! )

So,  it all boils down to I am a rebellious, determined to have my own way, defiant, despicable person.  And if you think THIS doesn't bring about feelings of guilt.... 

But to give Mr Bridges credit,  he did point me back to the cross, where all this nasty black-hearted sin was placed on my precious savior, who knew no sin, and it has all been taken away.  And now my savior sits at His Father's right hand and all my selfish prayers and  petitions are brought through the cleansing blood of Christ, and I have a righteous relationship with the Father. 

THAT did  cheer me up some.  I think I will go thank my Savior and work on living an obedient and grateful life.  That's the very least I can do.

thanks for reading,


                                                           Peaceful scene from Petit Jean